I fantasize with living in a diferent world in nature but with technology.

I fantasize with living in a different world in nature but with technology. A life understanding the most important is knowledge, air,  water, plants and animals. What do you need that you would sacrifice the water of a river for?. I want to sacrifice myself for knowledge. I want to live for the rest of my life in a total control environment in a isolation cell experiencing the punishment I would inflict on a serial killer. What allow myself is what allow the serial killer. I promise a justice system with zero crime. To survive wherever you are everyone has to understand God exists. If you understand you are infinitely important. The universe was created by an intelligent entity because from nothing can not be created something. Spinoza already discovered centuries ago God exists. I am tired and trying to overcome the most severe censorship of knowledge in history feels like torture. Am I asking too much?. I offer money for the chance to be punished for the rest of my life like I would punish a serial killer. I am a psychologist, I am not a mad man. Share with care if you dare to end the pain. Thank you.