I don’t want to freak out humanity

I don’t want to freak out humanity. Please listen. You have to guess who I am by the information I give. Please I don’t want the police involved. Please I don’t want mental health services involved. I know what I did and who I am. I am a complete different person. I was fucked up in the head. I was really fuck up in my head. How much fucked up? I was the most fucked up mentally. I was in a dark place. How much dark? Pitch black, you don’t see anything. Now I am better, not I  am a psychologist and rational thinker. I was sick mentally, I never told anyone. I never dared to tell anyone my mind. I fear humanity is going to freak out. I was kind on, not the same, I think I was a mixture or a, I don’t remember his name,  I took drugs to the extreme, I keep talking drugs, to hide, to forget what I need to remember and I can’t remember.  I need drugs. I really need drugs. I will talk with my doctor. I want immunity. I want total immunity guaranteed. I want total immunity guaranteed and signed on paper. I want to talk only with someone who understands what I am asking for. I can not talk without total immunity. Always safe. Whatever I say I will not end up in prison. I will not end up in a mental hospital. I need to take something strong to remember and get myself out of my torment. The tormented mind is myself, who I am. The exterior is my acting. I act all the time. I am an actor. The monster is inside. I am scared. What is going to happen to me? I don’t want to scare or hurt humanity. I just want to help humanity. I need time. I need more time. I just need more time. Before I didn’t know God existed. Before I was the past. The past change with knowledge. You have to guess how dangerous I am. I am not what it seems. I am a manipulatilor, a I was a servant of the wrong God. It’s like I was born different, but I wasn’t, I was weird. I am a poet and artist scared of living and I help people to survive. It’s about helping people at the end. I don’t deserve bad to me. I am the most hated. It’s a fucking disease in the head,.you can call it schizophrenia, you can call it bipolar, ocd, i had it all, it’s a disease, my brain it’s not normal, i need an autopsy when i die, i need my brain to be studied, i ask for forgiveness to humanity, i fooled everyone. It’s all personal. My life it’s all personal. Thank you.