floating bouncing weightless lost in void myself aiming higher to the top of God impossibility possible smoking cannabis manipulating everything nothing conscious unconscious animal plant mineral eternal mortal finite infinite alive inert dream reality gradual stepped perfect imperfect superior inferior universe number money creation evolution created with without creator with without beginning end in time past present future same different from the will to live love care matter. hell and heaven is ourselves for eternity til endless death. there are no secrets. truth is life and lie is death.