I am on antidepressants and I want to get rid of the pseudomedicine

I am on antidepressants and I want to get rid of this pseudomedicine out of my body. I am on 20 mg daily of Citalopram and if I had been in a trial testing the medicine and I hadn’t had a nasty nausea for the first three weeks that dissipated i would say what they gave me was placebo. I don’t feel the positive effect. Antidepressants are not a “happy pill” because it doesn’t make you feel happy, I hand on heart tell you I just don’t feel the positive effect. Is anyone of you on antidepressants?. I am a psychologist and I can help and I want to help. I would like to work as a chef in the kitchen of a prison or mental hospital. Now I am better, I don’t need antidepressants, now I have found a job and my life has taken the positive turn I was searching for. Do you have contacts that can help me get the job i want?. Thank you.