My life is intense

My life is intense. I exist, I have feelings and emotions. I have crazy and dangerous fantasies I struggle to keep at bay, everyday. I am unhealthy and before I die i want to do something good for humanity and give a present. I have more than one gift and my mind shifts. I am a magician of the mind. I help people change their minds to survive. I help people survive, do you like the vibe?. I need to be understood and my truth is atheism is a logical fallacy that assumes God is the religious idea of the creator of the creation to conclude wrongly no creator exists because a particular idea of God doesn’t exist. Atheism is a problem i want to end for them, for future generations. When?. Thank you.