Humanity wants me to go crazy.

Humanity wants me to go crazy. Humanity wants me to die to say God knows about me. Humanity is gaslighting me. The reality i am living in London is to make me want to go into a delicious and painless oblivion. I need to be happy. I need to enjoy life. Have you ever desired to not exist, like an atheist death?. If you understand you are infinitely important. Why i am being treated like rubbish?. I am the greatest psychologist and recovering addict and most intelligent person of all time, i understand reality the best,and people believe i am fool or want me to believe i am a fool. Sometimes I can do foolish things but I am not a fool. I need to talk. I am censored. I am unemployed looking for a job, I can teach your children why God exists. I am ostracized socially. I need a solution, I can not keep living like this. Thank you.