I fantasize

I fantasize. I have an idea for a reality show. The show is easy and cheap to film. It’s about fabricating a lie. I am sent to prison, I thought about the “Dolphin” prison in Russia or Wandsworth prison in London. In prison they think I am a murderer and rapist of children and my mission as a psychologist and recovering addict is to change the prisioners and prison to create a better society. Do you like the show? Would they hurt me? Why would they hurt me? Are they better than me? I am guilty and I regret my sins. I want to live in peace. I am not a threat to nobody. I mind my business. I don’t want trouble or to be involved in trouble. Do I have the right to live? Should I live? If I should live let me live. Why to create more suffering? I want to live whether I deserve to live or not. I live because life is all i got. I don’t want to be hurt, do you think it is easy to be me?. Life is to do good to others. Life is to make people happy. A life is a life and the past is gone and history. I am useful because I am a changed person. I can teach. I am useful for you here. It’s a fantasy, it’s a tale, it’s to create a different reality, it’s dreaming alive. I exist. I matter. I am something and I am free in captivity. I am free in this prison and I choose. I choose my destiny. I choose my story in prison. I know how to help you. Are you intelligent enough to understand God exists? God is a miracle impossible to understand. God existed always, it’s a fact, it’s sure, it’s reality, 100% sure, it can not be any other way. Because God exists everything we do, think, dream, fantasize, feel, want, matters. Your life, all your life, matters. You choose you are responsible. You choose you bring consequences. You choose you provoke or try to provoke a reaction. You choose your life without deceptions. People are dying now. My advice is to read Spinoza. I think reading Spinoza is beneficial. Spinoza came up with a different concept of God and coincidentally it’s the same as mine. What a coincidence! And I came up with my concept of God like Spinoza, thinking rationally. If Spinoza understood God exists and I understand God exists you can understand God exists. You will live better no matter what if you understand God exists. Eternity is guaranteed. The story continues when we die. Life and Death is the same metaphysical entity transforming. Listen please because to know God exists will save lives. The rest of knowledge is secondary. First humanity know God exists and after humanity don’t play with the idea of God. Humanity have made up gods not knowing God really exists. The universe or life was really created by something intelligent. Who would want to make up a god? God is real and my advice is to take care of God’s Creation, don’t break or hurt God’s Creation. God is alive because life exists. Thank you.