I am a teacher and psychologist

I am a teacher and psychologist and more. Is life fair or is life not fair. What do you think? I am not being treated fairly. I surrendered and kept going to surrender again. I tried and failed, I tried again and I failed. If it’s impossible to do it’s better not to waste your time and energy trying to do it. It’s about choosing your life. I have to eliminate the wall. The wall is the problem and I keep trying to help. I am deep person deeply hurt. I failed and Spinoza did what he could I guess. Spinoza made for himself a name. Different times, different tools, different people, different culture. Spinoza died badly, prematurely. Spinoza managed to publish his work, and it wasn’t enough to succeed. Spinoza in his book “Ethics” talks about the true God, God is for everyone the same, you choose you are responsible.