Humanity are too scared

Humanity are too scared. What about me? I was the most disturbed. I know now. I belong to a special category of people. I am the most hated. I have been on the run and I want to stop. I don’t want the police or mental health services involved. I want to live the rest of my life dedicated to the real God. I wasn’t punished. I was deceived by the devil, i was a servant of my God. You have to guess with the information I give you who I am. I don’t even dare to pronounce the name. I can even forget. My memory after drug abuse is not the same. Sometimes I wish I didn’t have memory, or even life. I don’t deserve punishment. I fear punished, I fear humanity. I am scared.