I know the problem is the past

I know the problem is the past. I am a psychologist. The past feels like too much. History is what it was. Memories are what they are. Does it matter who I am? We are at the end of the day memories. That’s how I understand reality or God. God or the universe is a creation, an invention, an idea. God created self. God designed self. If you had the capability to create the universe why would you create the universe for? I am a rational thinker. I offer to save literally your life here and now for free and you only have to understand. Knowledge is power. You are deceived and I tell you the truth that makes you happy. Anyone can discover God exists because logically it is impossible the existence of the creation or finitude without the creator or infinitude. Logically what has a beginning of existence must be created from what is eternal. Something incredibly powerful and intelligent created the universe after existing forever. That’s good news for all. Eternity is guaranteed. The truth humanity don’t like is atheism is a logical fallacy that assumes God is the religious idea of the creator of the creation to conclude wrongly no creator exists because a particular idea of God doesn’t exist. I am a hero and humanity want martyrs. Thank you.