I can not live like this

I can not live like this. I am extremely tired. I struggle one day at a time. Do you want the truth? I want to live without religion and atheism because the truth is I don’t know how to talk or what to say anymore. I am the teacher. Could I know something that you don’t? Tell them, tell everybody who understands I tried everything, I tried all. It is difficult to admit to be wrong. It is impossible to admit to be wrong. I have been mistreated for many years, suffering the calvary, like Jesus. Struggling in the corridors of the school to get to the classroom. I want to teach you God is necessary. Do you want to learn? If you knew God exists you would tell, to protect yourself and your loved ones. Thank you.