being alone isolated ignored ostracised without importance is the toll paid for being honest truthful impossibility possible miracle God universe infinite finite everything nothing alive inert dream reality gradual stepped perfect imperfect superior inferior animal plant mineral eternal mortal balanced unbalanced number conscious unconscious created with without creator with without beginning end in time past present future from the will to live love care matter. hell and heaven is ourselves for eternity til death. there are no secrets. the truth is life and the lie death.