How long my torture will last?

How long my torture will last?. I need to establish contact. I am going to write a forbidden poem so inspiring that it will be highlighted. My pain is real, I am real, I exist. Where does my pain come from?, my pain comes from my parents’s pain. And my parents’s pain?, my parent’s pain comes from my grandparents’s pain and so on so forth. But the sequence can not be infinite, otherwise I would not exist, therefore all pain comes from God, the first uncaused cause, the intelligent creator of the universe. So don’t worry because it’s all God’s fault. Have you ever dreamed about peace?, i promise you when atheism ends you will understand who causes the wars. My truth is atheism is a logical fallacy that assumes God is the religious idea of the creator of the creation to conclude wrongly no creator exists because a particular idea of God doesn’t exist. I need to overcome the most severe censorship of knowledge in history. Emergency!. Thank you.