I keep asking obsessively

I keep asking obsessively the question “what if I die?”. Come here to hear what the police has to say today. Silence is evidence of malevolence. My situation is not fiction and gives me affliction. At least if I was employed and earning money my situation would not be so desperate. My curriculum vitae is almost perfect and scary to others. I don’t have more words, it’s impossible with words, humanity don’t understand words. If I die please tell them what happened. Reality is unbelievable and people believe movies and other stories. My truth is atheism is a logical fallacy that assumes God is the religious idea of the creator of the creation to conclude wrongly no creator exists because a particular idea of God doesn’t exist. Emergency. Thank you.