My reality that is surreal

My reality is surreal. In a few days I will have an appointment with a doctor or psychologist of the NHS to talk about how I am doing. They don’t listen, they don’t process the information I give. Words have meaning and what i say is ignored. It’s gaslighting, it’s surreal. It’s absurd. Meanwhile I keep suffering the most severe censorship of knowledge in history. If I tell for example to a journalist I am suffering the most severe censorship of knowledge in history, to save lives, for the wellbeing of future generations, the journalist doesn’t react racionally and accordingly. If you were me what would you do?. Knowledge is good, that’s why students pay to study at universities and other institutions, am I right?. The same students are censoring my discoveries while they are deceived because I know the truth. People are dying and suffering and I offer help. My truth is atheism is a logical fallacy that assumes God is the religious idea of the creator of the creation to conclude wrongly no creator exists because a particular idea of God doesn’t exist. Thank you.