Have you read the book 1984

Have you read the book 1984?. Could reality have matched fiction here and now?. I am so disappointed. I feel alienated, not understood.  I understand humanity don’t understand. I understand people are deceived. Unfortunately it is impossible to make people understand they are deceived. God exists and reality matters. I am ok today. I survive and I wait for my chance. I need to be ready when the chance comes. The door is closed and I am waiting outside in the cold until the door opens if the door opens. People are the way people are, I have lived long enough to know i was deceived. It’s a shock, devastating psychologically to discover the truth or reality, to discover how much parents love their children and viceversa. One day at a time. My truth is atheism is a logical fallacy that assumes God is the religious idea of the creator of the creation to conclude wrongly no creator exists because a particular idea of God doesn’t exist. Thank you.