I am unemployed and worried

I am unemployed and worried. My health is not great. The world is corrupted, so much. Anyway. I despair pulling my hair. I don’t know what to say anymore. Can I get an answer from the police. I don’t want to die. If I die what are you going to say?. That’s the main issue, what if I die?. Listen please, I don’t have much money left and I am under so much pressure and I deserve Nobel Prizes. And the Nobel Prizes?. Can you sleep peacefully at night after reading my plea?. I need help. What’s the point of being corrupted?, why do you do what you do?. There is lack of understanding. Unfortunately it is impossible to make people understand they are deceived. Reality is sad. Knowledge is censored while students pay to be lied to. I need to be understood and my truth is atheism is a logical fallacy that assumes God is the religious idea of the creator of the creation to conclude wrongly no creator exists because a particular idea of God doesn’t exist. Thank you.