I am a psychologist

I am a psychologist and you just need to listen to me and try to understand. I need help. If you help me I offer whatever you want. What do you need?. I am a knowledgeable person, I am not a preacher. I have discovered the true God is Spinoza’s God. I need humanity to understand God is necessary, innocent and vulnerable children have to grow up understanding God exists. Innocent and vulnerable children will understand a creator exists. Is it fair to hide from them the truth that saves their lives? To live knowing a creator exists is something else. Suddenly everything matters. Suddenly death is not the end. Suddenly a purpose exists. Why we were created? Reality only makes sense with a creator. I suffer from obsessive thinking, an obsession, something bad but kind of you can not stop. How can stop my obsession with making the world a better place to live in? I need to overcome the most severe and devastating censorship in history for many years, I don’t remember how many. I can not live like this. I want to stop the war in Ukraine. If atheism is impossible why atheism exists? People don’t understand I am a psychologist, a professional of mental health. I cure minds, I teach why God is necessary. God is necessary because logically it is impossible the existence of the creation or finitude without the creator or infinitude. The past is the past and it can’t be changed and Spinoza’s God is like atheism, but understanding God exists. If you understand God exists you stop being atheist for fear of a real God. Would a real God punish you for saying God doesn’t exist? Why would you say God doesn’t exist if you understood the universe was created by something incredibly powerful and intelligent? God exists and the debate is over. I need to rest. Thank you.