If God is necessary

If God is necessary when we die we have to expect something big rationally. Imagine how big. A surprise. A pleasant and unpleasant surprise because we all make mistakes in life and also we all succeed. We are imperfect and also perfect for being imperfect. Imperfection is life, perfection is death. God is perfect and imperfect. I know it may seem like a contradiction but it is not. God is perfect and imperfect and God is a logical paradox impossible to understand. God is a miracle by nature. God is a real miracle. All reality is literally a miracle. The universe was created literally by a miracle. God is Time and Space transforming. I know you disagree and you still think it is a contradiction but I just want my message to arrive to future generations. God is literally a life. Life and Death is the same substance transforming. Emergency! Thank you.