Can I be completely honest with you?

Can I be completely honest with you? I think God is necessary and christianity is a cult. When I say christians are members of a cult i am saying christians are not like the good samaritan trying to make the world a better place to live in. The christian mentality is epitomized by the conquest of America by europeans. Do you think Jesus would have approved what christians did?, or did the conquistadors misinterpret the scriptures?. To understand God exists you have to understand reality is eternal because from nothing can not be created something. Nothing is what you get explaining to deaf ears. On understanding God exists you would feel deceived and emotionally devastated. How would your life have turned out had you known God exists before? Bear in mind I am talking about your eternal existence. Logically it is impossible the existence of the creation or finitude without the creator or infinitude. Atheism is the belief immune to arguments that all reality is created, and that’s why atheists remark “who created god?”. Atheism is blind faith in the impossible, like is religion. You have to get out of the circle! You are trapped inside the circle! You are deceived! Logically it is impossible the existence of an infinite number of causes and effects, therefore an eternal first uncaused cause that caused what has a beginning of existence must exist.